today, the 2nd day of "i am gifted, so are you" course... a day full of reflections... ESPECIALLY, of our pasts, what we had done, our setbacks, our future, career plus plus... today was the day where reminiscent of the past was at its peak... but lets start from morning till end of day two ok...

MORNING's part was taken by candice... we left her err.. somewhat disappointed yesterday as some of us were like so so so un-enthusiastic about her part of the workshop... and the some as in some of my class, 4E2...(we heard from Amin that candice told him that she don't really want to take us in the morning, as she was damn scared history will repeat) but, she was so so WRONG! we were so HOT... we are so so more enthusiastic than the E1s... or perhaps its our competitive side that do not want to lose to the E1s.. i'm not sure... but anyway... everything was quite alright... until this part where WILSON and WEI LI went to the front to challenge to read out the 30words that we were given the night before... it was a challenge of who could read the fastest. the faster one wins... we also were asked to put wages.. which is our 2 different classes' points... E1, i think waged, eh... 100 or 200 points.. i don't remember... (anyway, their points were like 200 points more than E2) we/ our class show hand!!! haha.. we waged all our points... we are brave.. we thought that, anyway we got nothing to lose, so just SHOW HAND... haha... in the end we still lost... haha sad right... but not to worry... we got back and even took the lead over E1 just before lunch or tea break... YAY... 3 cheers for E2!!! we were like so so united ok... our new group cheer was i think... one of the best i've heard...

AFTERNOON... it was Amin's turn... he was, i should say, one of the most humorous plus emotional guy/speaker we had for the course? anyway.. HE IS OUR FAVOURITE!!! i guess... at least he was my favourite speaker... but today he was different... he used most of the time telling us his life story... from primary school to secondary school and beyond... haha... we were all laughing at those funny voice, gestures, and remarks he made lahz... then until this part where it was about... "problems" that part changed the whole course of the talk... that part, he started to get somewhat emotional... really.. i could really feel that he was speaking to us full of...anger, frustration plus plus... but of course it was his way of telling us alot of things that we used to take lightly or for granted... really... his story of his grandpa... i tell you... that was one of the most most touching story i've ever heard... and well ok... i didn't cry... some was already allowing their taps to let the water run down their eyes... it was until he asked us to close our eyes and... imagine that if one day, we were to walk into a funeral?(i can't remember what word he used.. but the word used supposedly was to meant that it was at a wake) walked up to the 2 coffins of our beloved.. OMG... that's was really it... the first thing that came so vividly into my mind was my dear pop... ok... the whole scenario of pop's wake just came into my mind... and Amin, with his speeches, describing the scene, made me remember even more clearly of that eventful day... in my heart, it was... like OMG... i can't stand it anymore... but the funny thing is, i never breakdown... i never even cried... unlike some other guys in the room that was already running to the toilets(i'm not saying you all are "sissies" or what... in fact i admire those who actually shed their tears... its just that, i just can't or don't have tears... i just don't cry.. but it still have that sour feeling deep down)... i was like so so cannot tahan lahz... when its over... that down felling just overcame me... i was there sitting on that chair, with the cold air blowing towards me, and i just kept on thinking of pop... especially that cold and calm face of him from the glass that separates me and him... that thin glass, thou so thin but yet the gap that it created was like heaven and earth... towards the end, when amin asked us to write a letter to our parents, i was thinking... if i were to write a letter to pop, and to read it out to the everyone in the course, would one way or another, pop, in the nether world or some where, could hear to what am i saying? i hope he will...

EVENING... Danny-boy was in the house!!! he continued on where amin left off, and also talked about his past life...(these speaker really loved to share their pasts!!! wow) and also talked to us about our future... where and what we are going to do after O levels.. he also showed us a typical monthly expenditure of a working class professionals... wow, and could you imagine that to own car, flat, plus our necessities, one month, it works out to be about 3k plus.. and the average working professionals in S'pore actually only earn between 2.5-3k plus minus, depending on their work positions... haha... i'm so stress now... this made me even more sure that other than my dream job, i could choose no other jobs... as other jobs may not be able to supply me with the income to lead that 3k plus kind of lifestyle... so the solution for me? get a better paying job!

tomorrow's the last day of course!!! i'm so happy!!! hopefully tomorrow's gonna be a better day and have hope that the rest of the year would be BETTER!!! take care people!!!