Alright,

It's good.

Let what other's have perceived about me continue.

I've no qualms about it. I'm cool.

Everything freaking ends tonight.

it's not doing me any good at all.

it's killing me as much as it's killing others.

waning interest in work. i don't like it anymore except for the monetary satisfaction.

say a goodbye.

never ever leave without saying goodbyes.

it's rude and suggests that you've something to run away from.

never ever do that.

thoughts.

humans are always known for their bravery and knowledge.

in times of adversity, people of different race, status, age all show out their true courage, selflessness and taking no regards for their own live to stretch out that very hand to save just one more life than their own.
or, in times of deep shit, people stand out to cover great mistakes just to protect their very loved ones.
i proudly salute to this side of humanity where they let go of everything else and have just that one single aim in mind, to protect each other.

humans are also well known for their cowardly actions and being god damned weak.

as much bravery and selflessness every single human has, there is also an equal amount of fear, coward acts and escapism.

people cowardly run away from mistakes they've done, be it a grave mistake that clashes with the law or not. most humans do this. it takes more than a human to actually have the courage to come to terms with their mistake.

others run away from other more minor stuff, be it inter-relations or whatever that seems like a huge stumbling block in their lives. this, i suppose is all the more true for the weaker people.

they can't measure for themselves what's good and what's not. they're easily wavered off their stance when something else seems good and reasonable comes knocking. they get themselves into this state of confusion and then starts to look for the exit sign from the very problem.

they who runs away, will never get stronger because they escape. escape seems so much more easier to everybody. even me. i choose to escape when i can. it seems like by escaping the problem meets a dead end and everything just vanishes into thin air.

my dear friend you, you are not weak by nature. its a choice you've made for yourself. should you choose to avoid, you're just going one big round and come back to face it another time. should you know what your stance is, you wouldn't even need to go that big round to search for whatever reasons you're looking for. but should escaping makes you a stronger willed person, then i'll congratulate you for that.

Humans.

i like taking quiet bus rides home after work.
helps the quiet thoughts of life, people and myself to creep into my head.
on other times, i get crazy ideas about life and so.



today this came through my mind.
humans, they believe they're the descendants of apes. sometimes i beg to differ.
humans, they claim to be very complex. i disagree to this.
humans, they claim to be smart, we all know the facts.
humans are thirsty creatures. very very thirsty ones. ones that can never be satisfied no matter what.


humans always tell each other to be satisfied with what one have. i think its bullshit.
no single person can say that they're satisfied. 
they claim to be satisfied, but its actually just a mask to hide away the urge to crave for more.


if vampires are proven to exist,
i'd say humans are scientifically another species of vampires. they, lust for blood. we, lust for almost everything that's available to vie for. power, money, women/men, and status.
the saying, 'the grass is always greener on the other side' pretty much came from the mouth of people who look for excuses to justify the fact that they're not contented.


humans, pretty much are like that. they don't think its wrong. it been like that since the start, so long that it's a subconscious thing to do that no one ever sees the wrong in thirsting for more.


i may be wrong in my thoughts, but from my very own eyes, the world's playing itself this way to me. i write what i see, i write what i hear, i write what i feel. judgement of people are never balanced. to me, this is what my judgement of humans is. even i see myself to be so.

it's been a while, time to update update. :)
been slogging my guts out for the past month and half at work. finally i've earned a week of good rest this week before the pandemonium of a new semester sets in.
first lesson of the semester, module upgrade of MPI/DEL. spells nightmare. gonna kill me off right at the very beginning of the semester.

hopped around orchard with cherry today for shopping. :) had a small shopping spree going on cause i've got my pay!! thus the willingness and little feeling of seeing the money go poof in matter of seconds. bought the few items that i've been itching to get. wallet, jeans, and belt.

gloria jean's after all the shopping before popping by nydc to get my tee from jo. headed home filled with satisfaction over the day's haul. next round would be SUNDAY! hah. :)

pissed to the max!!!

went to jean yip for haircut. had been eager to get a new hairstyle for a change.
served by this fucking fat guy who then phone the hairstylist.
came one middle aged malay bitch who don't seem to have any idea of what i'm talking.
told her how i want it and she did a completely different thing. i said shaved and pointed to the bottom half of my hair. she happily shaved slope for me. FUCK! that goes for my sideburns as well. DOUBLE FUCK!!
am never gonna step into any jean yip salon anymore.

now i finally do understand one thing. going for the more expensive stuff sometimes don't give you the shit that you want. instead, they blow you away with a completely different thing and leave you there to screw yourself for choosing it. i just screwed myself. now on, i'm going to samantha's hairstylist. period.